Wednesday, July 16, 2008

tagged and an update

Well I saw the Dr on Tuesday and he thinks I can go back to work next Tuesday. I'm both ok and not ok with this development. The fact that I only have 1 week without pay instead of trying to find $1200 a month is a bit of a relief. However, I'm still in a good amount of pain (walking very slowly) and the nights are still very tough and I'm only getting about 3-4 hours of sleep total (not in a row) due to the pain. I'm not sure how I'm going to make it 8 hours a day 5 days a week for the next 5 months dealing with this pain and sleep deprivation. My sugars are very high also in relation to the pain and sleep deprivation and have me worried right now as well. And I must admit while terrified of the financial hardship I was enjoying the ability to nap when I needed and work through the pain at home where if I just needed to cry it was alright, and that isn't going to be the case at work. I really found myself a bit bitter about my working and full of envy for those who get the blessing of staying at home. I've been more vocal about it too which makes me feel guilty because DJ desires for me to stay at home but has never been in the position to make that possible. He's trying so hard to bring a little extra right now to help cover the extra medical costs by working nights for his father, so he works 12 hours (including his commute) then 8-10 hours at night to turn around and work another 12 hours. I worry about his health and safety when he does this pattern so often and all for $50 before taxes and gas. We had a couple of leads for possible new jobs for him but they seem to have gone away, or are on hold. So looks like things are back in a bit of limbo. I just really hope that I can adjust to work and that the pain will subside during the day hours so I can get through the next 5 months.

Ok I've been tagged by Julie and Teri so here are my 4 things.

4 Jobs I've had
1. Veterinary Assistant
2. Photo Lab Girl
3. Tax Fraud Investigative Analyst (IRS)
4. Legal Specialist for the City Prosecutor

4 movies I've watched more than once
1. Steel Magnolios
2. Madagascar
3. Lord of the Rings 1, 2 & 3
4. Princess Bride

4 Places I've lived
1. Vallejo, CA
2. Thousand Oaks, CA
3. La Mesa, CA
4. Fresno, CA

4 TV Shows I watch
1. The Office
2. CSI
3. Survivor
4. Good Eats

4 Places I've been
1. Mexico
2. Maui
3. Wyoming
4. Washington DC

4 People who email me regularly
1. Amie
2. Mom
3. City of Surprise
4. junk

4 favorite foods
1. Strawberies on Waffles
2. Pumpkin Pie
3. Crunchy beef tacos
4. Movie Theater popcorn

4 Places I'd love to visit
1. Alaska
2. London
3. New York
4. Ireland

4 Things I'm looking forward to next year
1. A healthy baby
2. Hopefully losing weight
3. Almost 30
4. ?

4 friends I'm tagging

Anyone who wants to play along =)


Amie said...

Well...I'm not sure if I'm to be happy or sad for you from this post. Are you glad that you're well enough to work, or...? It's a tough one to be sure. Just don't suffer in silence. I'm like .6 miles away if you need me.

Natalie said...

It sounds to me like you need a priesthood blessing EVERY DAY! Even if it doesn't take the pain away all the time, it'll provide you with some comfort and make it easier to bear. Hopefully, once you've had some time to adjust at work, it'll get much better for you. Some great news? In a couple of weeks you'll be able to find out if you're having a Phoebe or a Phoebo! :)

Christine said...

I know exactly how you feel about the working/not working thing. I've gone through it w/all 3 babies, but not with the pain you are going through. I am so sorry you are going through so much pain. Please, please tell me if you need anything!!!

Erica said...

Hi, its me again...I saw the ultrasound & I can't believe it. Congrats to you & your Hubby! You & the new baby are in my thoughts. xoxo