Saturday, April 18, 2009

The most traumatic day I had since I've become a parent

Let me start by saying thank you for the supportive comments from my previous post. And just to let you know that if you live in AZ you were not one of those mentioned in the (you know who you are) portion of the letter. And most likely if you're from CA and are reading this - you're not them either. That post was not meant to fish for compliments I promise. All I'm gonna say on the matter (because with writing the post I put the issue to bed, washed my hands of it and am at peace) is that prop 8 has angered many, and amongst that number are a few "friends" who no longer believe that I am their friend all because of my choice to be a Mormon. And when challenged or told I won't do something I am the type to take something to the extreme to make sure the challenge is met. So in the most public form I have I declared my feelings and said good bye to any regrets that I succumb to the world. Done.

On to my current trauma. So Friday I wake up and go to work and I'm thinking woo hoo it's Friday it's gonna be a good day - i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready (spongebob lovers out there get that last part). About a quarter of the way through the day I get a call from my mom who proceeds to tell me that she can, as of next week, no longer watch Caden on Mondays and Wednesdays. So I email Amie to see if she can take him 5 days a week. She of course says Yes! oh and by the way my last official day of day care is August ## - all cause she's gonna become the best RN in the world and change peoples life and crap like that (shesh totally selfish of her having dreams and stuff - seriously though I'm so proud of her, you go get em girl.

So I'm stressing a bit by now. I knew Amie was shutting down the business this year but having an official date made it real and that meant I had to deal with it now. Well I had put in a call to a local day care center a few weeks back and I called to get the quote and set up the walk though and interview. Holy Toledo - $850 dollars a week to take Caden there. I about had a heart attack.

Then about 10 minutes later I end up reading the saddest child abuse case I have read to date. I see pictures of the most egregious acts of abuse and my mind goes into full forced panic mode. I could feel the tears welling up and I knew there was no stopping them. I just sat there at my desk crying - uncontrollably. I wanted to hold my baby so badly right then. I couldn't get to Amie's house fast enough after work. I swear I was no more than 2 fee
t from him the whole night. Now in my previous post I stated that I was not ashamed that I was a working mother - but that in no way means I like it. I would have quit right then and there if there was any way at all that I could. I even pulled up my budget spreadsheet and tried to tweak the numbers. Can't afford the $850 for the center, can't afford to stay home, can't bring him to work with me - well crap.

So should anyone know someone who does in home day care I would love the referral. I know I have a few months, but I'm a planner and I will freak out until I have a person lined up. I'm officially invoking that great promise of sisterhood here - with a pretty please and a cherry on top for good measure. I mean come on look at this face and tell me
you don't want to snuggle and laugh with him all day long. Oh and he sleeps, never cries and his diapers smell of roses - just ask Amie =)


Rae Lynn said...

You are too cute! I wish that I could help out! Let's do find someone who will take my four and I will take your one! Good luck!

Josh,Trish,Braden and Mackenzie said...

Hey I have never done an official day care before but I am a mommy...I will help you out!!!

JWalkers said...

I'll do it! He and Jameson would play really well together! I can completely understand your situation. I cried when I had to go to a job interview and that was just a few hours. I can't imagine a whole day. Now that teachers are being cut in just about every district in the state (and my entire paycheck would go to daycare) I get to stay home.

Amie said...

Lol, you're too funny. Caden's a good kid ya'll. And you'll get him at such a fun stage. He's totally fun to cuddle and he eats and sleeps real well (for me anyway!). Thanks for the kudos, CC. We'll figure this out!

liz said...

I SOOOOOOO wish you lived closer. our center is only $550 per month. and everyone complains about it. crazy how that works. miss you

Amber said...

I know there is a lady by Karen who does in-home day care, so that would be close. She is super nice, I will ask Karen about her the next time I'm over there. And I will see if I can drum up any names in my brain of spiderwebs. =)